ONE MORE LIGHT

Should've stayed. Were there signs I ignored?

Can I help you not to hurt anymore?

We saw brilliance when the world was asleep.

There are things that we can have but can't keep.

If they say,

Who cares if one more light goes out

In the sky of a million stars?

It flickers, flickers.

Who cares when someone's time runs out

If a moment is all we are?

Or quicker, quicker.

Who cares if one more light goes out?

Well, I do.

The reminders pull the floor from your feet.

In the kitchen one more chair than you need.

Oh.

And you're angry, and you should be, it's not fair

Just 'cause you can't see it, doesn't mean it isn't there.

i came across this song from LP, what a great lyrics. Alhamdulillah , i think my health is getting better (i guess) and i eat regularly, without feelings full even if i eat 1/4 of the meals. So now i can consume more. Not too dwell into that things, should focus on more important things. But i can admit i do feels nervous when the next appointment is getting near.

i watched Bisik Pada Langit, and i felt so touched with the story line. The message was real. i don't  even know parents would be that depress if they lost their children.

"Betul lah kata orang dulu, peritnya seorang ayah yang hilang anak dia lebih perit daripada seorang anak hilang ayahnya." 

this line hit me like real. i can't imagine if my parents lost me. Oh Allah, i don't want they become depress. I love them so much. Tell me, how can i tell my parents in a beautiful way. Please prepare my parents heart and mind much more than you prepare it for me. They need your strength more, they need your light and hikmah wa rahmah. Please Allah, i do want to be your special love, i envy to those who close to you, should not me have any reason to love you. But just loving you all the way i can. I want to be it in that way. Oh Allah, keep pours us your LIGHT.